Fear of the unknown – WP Day 17

I sit here staring at the blank page, the cursor blinking and me afraid to think about my fears. Is it safe to say my fear is fear it self ?

The list of fears are endless, what I fear most at this moment is anything and everything that is ahead of me. I fear not being able to chase my dreams. The cafe/bakery I dreamt about for year is still nothing but a dream, will I ever be able to overcome the fear and make it happen ?

I fear not being able to love again or mostly I fear for loving the wrong person. I fear being hurt by people close to me and not being able to trust anyone. I fear what tomorrow will bring or not bring. I fear that what I write is never good enough, but for the most part I overcome that fear.

Fear is within me, no matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I fight, I am not able to let go of some fears. Being fearful is part of me, so yes I fear, fear itself.

 

“Courage is a peculiar kind of fear”.

Charles Kennedy

Day 17 of WP Challenge

We all have anxieties, worries, and fears. What are you scared of? Address one of your worst fears.

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About my random musings

I am originally from South East Asia and I moved to the US about 15 years ago to follow my heart. My heart has since been broken a few times, but I continue to be on journey of trying to mend it. I could talk about running, baking or writing in a small crowd, but put me in a room full of strangers and I will be the one standing in a corner people watching. When I am not writing or running, I would be in my kitchen, flour strewn all over the kitchen counters, music playing in the background and me just rolling and folding dough, excited about what my creation will turn out to be. Besides that I love passionately, when I love, I give it my all, not always a good thing, but that is who I am. I jump both feet in and sometimes I come out with regrets but having learnt a lesson. I believe everything happens for a reason and this is my place to share bits and pieces of my life, my adventures and sometimes misadventures. Hope you enjoy reading my stories as much I enjoy sharing them with you.
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5 Responses to Fear of the unknown – WP Day 17

  1. kimmclain says:

    I have lived in fear. I think it comes with great loss and maybe middle age. My parents died of cancer within 12 days of each other. They were 54. For a year afterwards I lived in fear. Then at Christmas time the following year God asked me for the gift of trust. I felt like it was my cheating ex asking for another chance. But I knew it was God and I want to see my parents again. I have since found myself in situations everyday where I feel afraid. I have a choice… Be afraid or let go and let God. I don’t know if you are a spiritual person or not but my 17 year old is a competitive gymnast. Fear has held her back. It has been her greatest enemy. This year she is flying high. I asked, “Is it maturity?” She said, “I don’t let my self think about it any more. I just do it.” Courage is acting even when your afraid.

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    • Thank you very much for your reply. I am sorry to hear about your parents. I can only imagine how devastating that must be. No matter how old you are, it is never easy to lose a parent.

      I am doing the best I can to overcome all my fears, sometimes its little baby steps, but hopefully I will eventually overcome my fears and have the courage to chase my dreams.

      Thank you again for your words of encouragement and for taking the time to read and reply.

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  2. Jim says:

    This one was very interesting Tania. I can absolutely relate and I have the same fear about fear itself. Sometimes to the extent that if I have nothing that I am worrying about, I fear/worry what am I suppose to be afraid of now? Lol. Your heart will open again.

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  3. Have never read truer words than these.

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