For you

Posted on May 21, 2014 by my random musings

“The true mark of maturity is when somebody hurts you and you try to understand their situation instead of hurting them”

Here are the things I want for you and want you to know !

I want you to be happy.

I want you to know that for a short period of time you made me happy, even though you really did hurt me in the end, I was better for it. I don’t know if what we had was love , but if it wasn’t I hope I never fall in love again. Because of you I am too fragile to bear that kind of love again.

I want you to remember my lips beneath yours , how my hands felt entwined in yours and how you told me things you never told anyone else.

I want you to know that  I have kept sacred everything you entrusted me with and will not betray you….even though you did.

I want you to know that I am sorry for somethings that transpired during our time.

I want you to know that you hurt me beyond words can explain.

I want you to know that I never expected you to let me down the way you did.

I want you to know, I don’t hate you, I just lost respect for you, because I thought you were a better person.

I want you to know that despite all our ups and downs I did care for you.

Most importantly I want you to know that no matter what, I wish you the best always.

I want you to know, that thanks to you, I am able to look at things in a different perspective, see people for who they are.

I want you to know, that I now trust my gut instinct more than I did before.

I want you to know, you have added to my scars, but those scars make me who I am today, a stronger and better person.

I want you to know, I have learnt to always listen to my heart, even thought its on the left side, it will always be right and I am thankful for that lesson I learnt because of you.

Finally I want you to know I thank you for everything, but mostly for giving me the opportunity to go on a road of self discovery.

About my random musings

I am originally from South East Asia and I moved to the US about 15 years ago to follow my heart. My heart has since been broken a few times, but I continue to be on journey of trying to mend it. I could talk about running, baking or writing in a small crowd, but put me in a room full of strangers and I will be the one standing in a corner people watching. When I am not writing or running, I would be in my kitchen, flour strewn all over the kitchen counters, music playing in the background and me just rolling and folding dough, excited about what my creation will turn out to be. Besides that I love passionately, when I love, I give it my all, not always a good thing, but that is who I am. I jump both feet in and sometimes I come out with regrets but having learnt a lesson. I believe everything happens for a reason and this is my place to share bits and pieces of my life, my adventures and sometimes misadventures. Hope you enjoy reading my stories as much I enjoy sharing them with you.
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